Selamat Hari Lahir suamiku 28 Jun 2020

Buat suamiku tercinta, Mahmud Bukhari

Selamat Hari Lahir buatmu sayang...

Sungguh aku sayang padamu, 

Pengorbananmu tidak mungkin dapat kubalas,

Berkorban datang ke Bumi Ratu,

Meninggalkan keluarga dan pekerjaanmu,

Demi menggalas sebuah tanggungjawab,

Untuk sentiasa berada di sisiku...

Sungguh aku sayang padamu,

Saatku bersedih atau bercelaru,

Engkau sentiasa menemani,

Dan sabar menanti, 

Terima kasih kerana sentiasa menyayangiku..

Doaku yang ikhlas,

Agar Allah sentiasa melindungimu,

Disetiap langkahmu,

Dan semoga Allah kekalkan diriku,

Sebagai suri hatimu di dunia dan akhirat..

Ya Allah,

Engkau mengetahui betapa besarnya pengorbanan suamiku ini,

Aku mohon dengan rahmat kasih sayangmu,

Berkatilah setiap langkahnya dalam menjadi hambaMU yang lebih baik,

Pimpinlah hatinya dalam mencariMU, Tuhan yang Maha Baik,

Janganlah ENGKAU tinggalkan dia walau sesaat Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Penyayang.

Engkau Ya Allah adalah tuhan sebaik-baik pelindung. Amin

Untukmu suamiku tercinta.

Dirimu yang terbaik untukku, dunia dan akhirat, in sha Allah. 

- Mr Mahmud Bukhari -

Terima kasih kerana berkorban untukku dan Yusuf.

Maafkan diriku di atas kesibukan dalam mengejar PhD ini,

Engkau suamiku yang terbaik dunia akhirat,

Sabar melayani kerenahku dan juga Yusuf,

Allah sebaik-baik yang mampu membalas segala jasamu.

Allah melindungimu dunia akhirat. Amin.

p/s: PhD adalah satu perjalanan yang memerlukan pengorbanan terutama dari pasangan. Saya doakan semua yang sedang berjuang dalam pelajaran akan dikurniakan suami yang sangat memahami, dan semoga urusan menuntut ilmu kalian dipermudahkan. amin.

Afifah

Tempatku belajar di University of Oxford

Terpanggil untuk memperkenalkan tempat di mana saya belajar di Oxford.

Nama: Cardiovascular Clinical Research Facility (CCRF)
https://www.rdm.ox.ac.uk/about/our-clinical-facilities-and-mrc-units/cardiovascular-clinical-research-facility

Location: The John Radcliffe Hospital, Oxford

Division: Medical Sciences

Department: Radcliffe Department of Medicine

University: University of Oxford

My profile: https://www.rdm.ox.ac.uk/people/afifah-mohamed

My research project: https://www.rdm.ox.ac.uk/about/our-clinical-facilities-and-mrc-units/cardiovascular-clinical-research-facility/ongoing-clinical-studies/trial-of-exercise-to-prevent-hypertension-in-young-adults-tephra

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https://www.rdm.ox.ac.uk/about/our-clinical-facilities-and-mrc-units/cardiovascular-clinical-research-facility/ongoing-clinical-studies/yacht

CCRF merupakan sebuah unit trial yang sangat cepat membangun. Di sini, saya banyak berkecimpung dalam clinical trials. Terlalu banyak yang ingin saya kongsi berkaitan tempat belajar saya. Terasa sangat bertuah kerana mempunyai kawan-kawan yang saya anggap seperti keluarga di sini, CCRF family. In sha Allah bila berkelapangan saya akan berkongsi serba sedikit tentang CCRF.

Spring Time. Tempatku menimba ilmu

With part of the great team, CCRF

CCRF team

How did my supervisor initiates my thinking?

Almost two months here, lots of things I learnt. For this entry, I love to share how Paul did to initiate my thinking and built my confidence at the beginning of my PhD. I wish to use these approaches when I deal with my students in the future. I can say that I'm so lucky to get supervisor like Paul, really understanding, friendly, and I felt so free and happy to talk with him.

1. His smiling face, make me calm
Whenever I meet him, he always greets me with his smiling face.

2. He start to iniatiate my thinking with what I can do.
I still remember, I came to see him for weekly progress meeting. I told him that I already able to do this and that... He said that was good and keep up the good work. The next meeting, he asked me the principles behind all the things that I was already able to do by myself. I can only answered a few questions and I was really sad. He said to me, when I did any measurement, try to think of why I'm doing that? How can it relates to my PhD? A week later, I came to see him and explain all the unanswered questions. Starting from that point, I start to thinks the purpose of my doing. :)

3. He never said you are wrong directly
If I did wrong, he will always start with; great, good work, good, you almost there. Then only he will explain to me the real answer. By doing that, he actually makes me feel acceptable and initiates me to do better in the future.

4. During my presentation, he will look at me, smiling and I can see the encouragement from his face.
He really appreciates my comment/suggestion/opinion even though it is very simple and sometimes not helping at all. - I become more confident to talk and giving opinions. It also develops my thinking to think further and deeper on one issue.

A friend in need, is a friend indeed

16.11.2016

Felt so tired today, just finished the last participant around 9.30pm. I'm thinking of my husband, he must be waiting for me to come home. I guess, this is the sacrifices  need to be made by every of the doctoral students.

I knew that I missed the bus at 9.30pm. "just wait for the 10pm one", I whispered to myself. I preferred to just wait inside the CCRF instead of outside because it was very chilly.

Huck was there and I knew he was double tired than me, struggling with the research and transfer report at the same time. We had a chat. Even though it was a very short and simple one, it was very meaningful.

Huck: Such a very long day ya
Me: Yes, anyway we made it through, Yeay. Huck, I met Paul two days ago. I thought I was doing well but I'm actually not.
Huck: Why?
Me: Paul asked me so many questions based on what I can do. Unfortunately, I can't answer it. I can perform but I didn't understand the principles overlying it.
Huck: It was absolutely fine. You are here not even two months and lots of things you have done by yourself. I can see that you started to optimize your skills and interact more with participant while performing. You are improving day by day. The thing now is just that you need to start understand slowly the principles overlying all the activities that we have done here. No worries you will be fine. ......(Huck plan my target for one year).... Well, just remember one thing, don't do the progress report last minute like me. Lol
Me: Of course I need to do it early Huck. I need to struggle with the English writing as well.
Huck: Don't worry, we make sure you will make it through....

The last sentences beat my heart. Thank you Allah, for surrounds me with lots of helpful and nice friends.